A few weeks out from booking my Boudoir I found myself to be just a girl who decided to go for it... not thinking too much about it and just OWNING it!!!!! Celebrating myself as I am NOW and embracing it! This is what Boudoir Photography is truly about!! The Here and the Now and celebrating YOU!!! So, that's just what I did and let me tell you... it was FUN -- I LOVE my photos....however I didn't wake up feeling as enthused...
As I sit here looking at my finished photos I think back to the actual day of my Boudoir session and the emotions I was feeling.... I did NOT wake up and feel like one of those women who hop out of bed and "carpe diem". I felt unsure and thought " why did I commit to this?!"
The Virgo in me was taking over and I could not relax. I was too "in my mind" and fixated on how I looked, afraid of posing and being embarrassed -- I am the MOST graceless woman on the planet as many friends and family could attest !! BUT....there was a little voice in my mind that said "Darling just own it" so I laid all my makeup out, got the hair tools going and decided to embrace the beauty of this fun and crazy experience and enjoy the ride. Being as real and honest as possible I have decided to lay it all out for you.
The makeup transformation lifted a weight off my shoulders and I was ready to get in front of the camera! I felt energetic, playful and fearless! It validates my belief that when a woman feels good about herself she is unstoppable! And that's why I do what I do, helping women feel beautiful and confident is my calling.
As I got in my car and double checked my makeup in the car mirror I finally felt excited!!!!! Now that my makeup and hair was done and my bags were packed I felt more ready then ever... jewelry Check, heels Check, wardrobe choices Check!
Arriving at the studio, I was greeted by Nick, the photographer whose face said it all!! The "today's the day" confidence on his face made me embrace the exciting environment and put my mind at ease!! The lighting and cameras were all set up, with my hair and makeup already done , I dressed in my first wardrobe choice!!
What more fun then to use your wedding dress as one of your wardrobe choices!!??? I was so excited!!! I've been married 7 years this year and I didn't think about doing a bridal Boudoir at the time of my wedding. It was in my comfort zone, a "safe place" to start off my session. Getting back into my dress reminded me of my wedding day.... my dad walking me down the aisle to meet my soldier, my groom, and my best friend. I even chose song choices for Nick to play while I got dressed in the fitting room so I could have a moment to myself!! Engulfed in my beautiful wedding dress. I stared at myself in the mirror and thought how much has changed since the day I got married! All the amazing years we have had together, all the travels and things we have accomplished. I also gazed at my dress and remembered when my mom and me picked it out together! All of these amazing memories that I wanted to celebrate AGAIN and I was so excited that I found a reason to wear it second time around after all these years!
The dress did not fit as it once did 7 years ago and was actually too big!!! Regardless of the fact, when I told Nick I wanted to wear it, he gave me professional advice on how I can pose to still get this bridal effect I wanted during the consultation! He showed me some great shots of me and my dress as we went along throughout the shoot. I was happy so decided to move on. Next came the fun part when we "mimicked" my English Countryside wedding and added cowgirl boots!!! We laughed for a while about my posing antics as I fumbled over my huge train and dress.... but he was there to help me like a true maid of honor on my wedding day! Fluffed my dress for me, adjusted lighting and instructed and educated me on posing. I had NEVER done anything like this... the girl who stays behind the scenes with a makeup brush in one hand, teasing brush in the other was now the woman in FRONT of the camera.... I was far more awkward then some of the talented models I work with on set but you would NEVER know from my photos!
I felt confident and Beautiful and reminded myself that I did not wake up today to be mediocre so off I went to the fitting room for another wardrobe change!! Alongside my wedding dress I chose two wardrobes; one a little more soft and feminine and one more dark and bold, because honey; you only live once so you might as well be a badass!! I adjusted the makeup to make each look unique to its own! I even added in a flower crown as a fun spring accessory to my softer look.
After my session we went thru final photos and I chose my favorite ones! I was SO nervous to see them , worried that I didn't look very good but regardless I had fun. Turns out I chose MORE then I thought I would for edits and can't wait to receive my album.... the one for the hubby only that is ;)
I was so thankful and proud that I decided to do a Boudoir session! As I watched our story unfold through photography I knew then and there exactly why I did this! It was something I proved to myself !!! I learned that once in a while it's GOOD to blow your mind!!
- Sara xO